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Imagine going to heaven and standing by God as He lovingly shows you the calendar of His plan for your earthly life. It begins with the day you are born. Once you received Christ as Savior, every day that follows is outlined in red. You see footprints walking through each day of each week of your life.

On many of the days, two sets of footprints appear. You inquire “Father, are those my footprints on the calendar every day and is the second set of prints when you joined me?”

He answers, “No, My precious Child. The consistent footprints on your calendar are Mine. The second set of footprints are when you joined Me.”

“Where were You going, Father?”

“To the destiny I planned for you, hoping you’d follow.”

“But, Father, where are my footprints all those times?”

He answers, “Sometimes you went back to look at old resentments and habits while I was still going forward, hoping you’d join Me. Sometimes, you departed from My path and chose your own calendar instead. Other times, your footprints can even be seen on another person’s calendar because you thought you liked their plan better. At other times, you simply stopped because you would not let go of something you could not take to the next day.”

“Father, what are those golden treasure boxes on certain days?”

“Blessings, My Child, I had for you along the way. Those that are open are those you received. Those still closed were days you did not walk with Me.”

“But, Father, we ended up OK even if I didn’t walk with You every day, didn’t we?”

He holds you close and smiles, “Yes, Child, we ended up OK. But, you see, OK was never what I had in mind for you.”
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Guys suck!


Guys… Sucks!
You sucks!
My life; sucks!
And I have no idea;
How does my life started to be THAT worst!

Guys… Sucks!
You sucks!
My friendship sucks!
And to be real;
Guys JUST looking for advantages!

My life sucks triples;
MORE than everyone can imagine!
And I am SO…
Fucking-hopelessly-idiot to live NORMAL!
I’m off to D.I.E!

Guys… Sucks!
You sucks!
My life; sucks!
And you have no idea;
How does it felt to be a hopelessly-spotted-victim!!!
I’m off to D.I.E!

My life sucks!
All relationship is a LIE!
Guy’s LOVES is A JOKE!!
I can’t take it anymore!
I’m off to be NUMB!
I am NOT a CLOWN or a BITCH-CLOWN!!
You MORON!
I am off to D.I.E!

My life sucks!
Broken and bandages on every corner!
I can’t trust people;
I trust no one!
I don’t believes in love
Even friendships;
Has ruined the things that we call TRUST!

I hate people!
I hate YOU guys and I hate BARBARIAN!
Is it just me; or does it happen to anyone else too?

Guys… Sucks!
Guys… LIE!!
I don’t trust MAN!
Not even for friendships!
It’s a JOKE! I just couldn’t take it anymore!
Its FAKE and fantasy-bullshit!
Guys JUST looking for advantages!
And I am off to MY WORLD!
YOU SUCKS!

They CAN’T respect WOMEN!
They NEVER sincere!
And they treat FEMALES like SHIT!
They NEVER listen!!!
Oh why does this happen to me?
Why do I’m the one; to experience this SORENESS?
Oh why do I have to pass the pain!!??
What the fuck with my life!?

Let’s stopped this;
You MORON!
And go, and pick someone else;
I can’t bare more SORENESS!!
And I hate PEOPLE!
I hate everyone!
I hate LIES!

But one thing for sure…
Guys, SUCKS!
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No More Politeness!

I am sick of me!
I am sick of everything;
I am sick of being polite
And I am sick of being a victim

Time to counter back;
No one care
So let’s just play it rough
And mum dad; I’m blaming it on you!

Polite is my manners;
And give it up is my pleasant
And now look at me;
I’m doomed to be everyone’s clown!

Time to counter back!
Time to rise up high!
I’m not dead;
Not even quiet or invisible

I am here; standing
Not just watching but staring
I’m ready to put anyone down on their knee;
And I am ready to rumble

Don’t mention; that I’m different
Don’t say I’m changed
Coz I’m changed to rebuild my pride!
And you’ll be here to claim your reward

I’ll track your ass down
And let’s see how hard you’ll cry
I won’t play any politeness, not even excuses
I will make your life miserable
Because that’s what I am

It’s not fair to be burn down; alone
So, let’s taste my hell together
And prepare to be agonized
I was there down on my knee;
Cried on no one’s shoulder
Now it’s your turn!

No more Ms. Polite
No more sweets old friend
You’ll going down and you’ll be an ash
I won’t spare any enemies
So keep your apologies away!

I am sick, I am fucked up and I am just a whore;
Congratulation you’ve change me a lot!
Now it’s my turn!

So watch out; you gonna die
Suffers in vain and cry your heart out!
No more politeness and I wish you to off;
Hopeless-brats, you’ll going down!
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Precious

life is so full of surprises...

happy things, sad things, things that can make you angry...

but life is too short to worry too much...

don't spend your mornings with regrets...

love those who love you, ignore those who don't...

believe that everything has a purpose, a reason...

know and acknowledge a good thing when you see one and NEVER LET IT SLIP AWAY...

if you get the chance, take it...

if it changes your life for the better, let it...

nobody said life is easy, but always remember that everything that happens is WORTH IT!!!

so, never underestimate your potential and never be ashamed of who you are...

do your best especially when people expect less of you...

because the greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you can't do...

i personally take pleasure in shoving it to their faces and down their sorry throats, slamming their faces to the ground and asking them:

WHAT THE FUCK WERE YOU SAYING???
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A man was sleeping at night in his cabin when suddenly his room filled with Light, and God appeared. The Lord told the man he had work for him to do, and showed him a large rock in front of his cabin.

The Lord explained that the man was to push against the rock with all his might. So, this the man did, day after day. For many years he toiled from sun up to sun down; his shoulders set squarely against the cold, massive surface of the unmoving rock, pushing with all of his might. Each night, the man returned to his cabin sore and worn out, feeling that his whole day had been spent in vain.

Since the man was showing discouragement, the Adversary (Satan) decided to enter the picture by placing thoughts into the weary mind: “you have been pushing against that rock for a long time, and it hasn’t moved.” Thus, giving the man the impression that the task was impossible and the he was a failure. These thoughts discouraged and disheartened the man.

“Why kill myself over this?” he thought. “I’ll just put in my time, giving just the minimum effort; and that will be good enough.” And that is what he planned to do, until one day he decided to make it a matter of prayer and take his troubled thoughts to the Lord. “Lord,” he said, “I have labored long and hard in your service, putting all my strength to do that which you have asked. Yet, after all this time, I have not even budged that rock by half a millimeter. What is wrong? Why am I failing?”

The Lord responded compassionately, “My friend, when I asked you to serve Me and you accepted, I told you that your task was to push against the rock with all of your strength, which you have done. Never once did I mention to you that I expected you to move it. Your task was to push. And now you come to Me with your strength spent, thinking that you have failed. But, is that really so? Look at yourself. Your arms are strong and muscled, your back sinewy and brown, your hands are callused from constant pressure, your legs have become massive and hard. Through opposition you have grown much, and your abilities now surpass that which you used to have. Yet you haven’t moved the rock. But your calling was to be obedient and to push and to exercise your faith and trust in My wisdom. This you have done. Now I, My friend, will now move the rock.”

At times, when we hear a word from God, we tend to use our own intellect to decipher what He wants, when actually what God wants is just a simple obedience and faith in Him. By all means, exercise the faith that moves mountains, but know that it is still God who moves mountains.

When everything seems to go wrong … just P.U.S.H.!
When the job gets you down … just P.U.S.H.!
When people don’t react the way you think they should… just P.U.S.H.!
When your money looks “gone” and the bills are due…just P.U.S.H!
When people just don’t understand you … just P.U.S.H.!

P= Pray
U= Until
S= Something
H= Happens

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3 things!

Three things in life that, once gone, never come back -
1. Time
2. Words
3. Opportunity

Three things in life that can destroy a person -
1. Anger
2. Pride
3. Unforgiveness

Three things in life that you should never lose-
1. Hope
2. Peace
3. Honesty

Three things in life that are most valuable -
1. Love
2. Family
3. Friends

Three things in life that are never certain -
1. Fortune
2. Success
3. Dreams

Three things that make a person -
1. Commitment
2. Sincerity
3. Hard work

Three things that are truly constant -
Father - Son - Holy Spirit

I ask the Lord to bless you, as I pray for you today; to guide you and protect you, as you go along your way. God’s love is always with you, God’s promises are true. And when you give God all your cares, you know God will see you through.

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Suicide

They say that suicide is the most selfish thing that anyone can do for themselves. If that were true more people would be dead. I am a selfish human being. I listen to my inner most desires with a hungry heart that's never satisfied. I am overtaken by fits of lust so ferocious I think I could die. If suicide is so selfish then it is the ultimate act of self gratification. We live in a society that feeds itself images of death and torture. We eat violence for breakfast. The news is rampant with images of death and destruction. So why not give them something to talk about?

Suicide isn't selfish. It is what people say that it is: an escape. A person has the right to decide when they want to die. Of course I would hope that they choose to live as long as they can. But there are other circumstances that you have to take in to understand a bigger picture. Yes people who kill themselves do it to escape the horrors of this world. Can you really blame them? Who doesn't want to get out of here? It's the fastest way possible. I advocate suicide wholeheartedly. Now I know people are going to freak out...how could you say something like that? Think of your family! If you were to die what would happen to them?

Well...if I were to commit suicide what would happen to my family? My guess is that they would keep on living. Sure there would be years and years of pain to go through. But life goes on even when the lives of others have stopped. The fact is I don't want to commit suicide. If somebody else wants to...they should. Why force yourself to endure a lifetime of pain? For what? Why suffer through a mental illness? Let yourself go. Those who are stupid enough to commit suicide deserve to die.

I believe that I have a higher purpose. The power to live comes from within one's own self. I choose to live through all of this hardship and pain because I believe that hardship and pain make me a better person. They make me stronger. The more pain, the more a agony I feel - the more I am in pure ecstasy. Human beings are just animals. The ability to imagine doesn't make us better than a dog. We were destined to live in pain because God made us that way. Pain is a natural part of healing - just as death is a natural part of life (as the saying goes).

Some people find the need to hurt themselves. And I'm okay with that. I DON'T advocate violence to others. So if that violence in thus turned upon yourself...who cares. I believe that suicide and self mutilation is for confused people who have lost the ability to feel. Maybe they deserve to die because they don't want to suffer without adding to the pain like the rest of us. But honestly - who WANTS to feel?

If someone finds an escape from this shitty world by harming themselves. Good for them. An individual should cut, tear, rip open, spit on, shit on, and disfigure themselves in replace other beings. A human being should not harm another human being. Unless of course they attack you.

Don't turn the other cheek. It'll just get you killed.

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Society: May You Rot or Change

I'm sick.
My whole body aches.
My heart bursts with outrage.

Why?

Because you are fake. You are worthless. You crawl about this planet pretending to be something that you are not. You hide behind labels. You try your hardest to be what everyone around says you are. You don't listen to your heart. You wait for someone to give you permission you move. You mask yourselves by creating hollow and fake identities that you hide behind because it feels so safe. You view beauty as a magazine cover, as a body. You are narcissistic and empty. You pump your bodies full of chemicals.

Makes me believe that Marilyn Manson is right when he claims that: WE ARE JUST MECHANICAL ANIMALS!

How can we break ourselves of this morbid cycle? And why do we do this to ourselves? Why do we cause ourselves such enormous pain?

We do this because we are afraid of who we are. I hate my family. I hate my family's biased, close minded, self righteous, Bible thumping, gay bashing, hypocrisy. Yet somewhere in me it exists. I just want to cut it out. And people who wish to edit a part of their lives out try to do so literally. As if a blade, as if blood drawn from our bodies will somehow relieve us of all the shit we keep inside of ourselves.

I am not afraid of my family. I don't hold onto the foolish comforts that they do. I don't judge others the way they do. I haven't filled my mind with lies and one sided ideas. I create ideas of my own. Because when we die it's all over. But maybe we can leave something behind of substance- something meaningful. I AM UNIQUE. I take pride in my individuality. That's what makes me so much better than you.

You all look the same to me. All of society is just a "copy of an imitation" (another Manson quote).

And yet you all want to break me. To make me like you. There is nothing more suffocating. I scar myself to keep me separate from you. I disfigure myself to remain anonymous. I am everything and everyone...and nothing at all. There is a higher calling on my life and it is to be an example what what pure individuality is. I am created to show you weak, pathetic, bleeding, morons that life isn't about the pain that we have to endure. Life is about how to break the cycle of NORMALITY. We must break down all SYSTEMS and start anew. Rebel against your father and mother. Pursue KNOWLEDGE so that you can be greater than them. And if you are a parent stop parenting the way society tells you to. Don't instill religious beliefs in your children. When they are older - explain to them what you believe but allow them to explore the alternatives. In the end...good guy badges don't mean a fuck to anyone.

We must continue to challenge the way society sees and fears the world. We must take all the fear onto our backs and shove it back into the faces of the PEOPLE. All of your fears are stupid and unreasonable. Life isn't just a game - it is a power. With the time that we are given on this planet let's make some waves.

You imbeciles!! You're nothing but rotting dog meat!!! You continue to mock and degrade the great thinkers of our time.

You don't even know who they are do you?

How about:
Marilyn Manson,
Anton Szandor LaVey (although he did die)
Eckhart Tolle
Oprah fuckin' Winfrey

Or Great thinkers of the PAST:
Ghandi
The Buddha
Mother Theresa
The authors of the Bible

All these people have great ideas. But you don't listen. Or you pretend to listen. You debate. You misinterpret. You even condemn those ideas that you deem to be irresponsible. You hate people like Marylin Manson and Anton LaVey because you fear them. You don't understand them or their ideas and you wouldn't want to look into them because they are unfamiliar. They are not part of what you stupidly call the "norm".

Fuck the norm. This is an era of new Ideas of NEW RELIGION. This is a transition period where the new will conquer and replace the old. We shall become less animal and more human. Since time began our lives revolved around survival: looking for food, finding shelter, fucking to increase population. But in America all of these things are taken care of for us. We need to move on to greater, more important things. Rational thought in the end destroys skepticism. Which surprised all of us didn't it?

Let's change this world one person, one day at a time.

WHO'S WITH ME????

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